Life of Z: Week 2

Hello!
This week is extraordinary out of my comfort zone. I usually don’t tend to go out much because I get anxious or simply don’t want to go out. However, I started a new job and that pushed me to get out of my zone a bit. I am a bus commuter so it was interesting to take a couple buses just to get to work on time. Anyhow, this week(end) was very anticipated for daughter and myself. I hosted her first Halloween party.

Through all the running around from store to store; here are some photos I was able to capture…. haha oops.

Party Ready!
Setting up for the Party!
Sunday Breakfast at IHOP and we tried Morticia’s Haunted Hot Chocolate… Looks like spooky goop lol

Week 3 starts tomorrow…
Please let me know how your weeks are going~~~
Take care, XOXO
Z

Life of Z: Week 1

Hey there!
I hope you are doing well! You could call me the queen of procrastination because I never write, or put it aside… haha well. I just keep getting caught up in my life. My anxiety and always making excuses for myself. Like I just want to live and enjoy.

The other day I posted a photo of myself for World Mental Health Day, because I know there are a lot of people out there who suffer. Quietly, too. I am for sure one of those people. In this photo I captured myself feeling happy. And I try to look at it when I am feeling all anxious and unhappy.

So I wanted to try something new. I am the type of person to try many things in hopes of finding peace with my anxiety and hoping to find happiness along the way. I want to capture my everyday life with a photo. Whether it is of myself or something that makes me smile. I want to be more proactive for myself, to remind myself to be happy and enjoy life.

So here’s my first week, with just few photos.

Michelle being all cute at the pumpkin patch!
A photo of me taken by my daughter

I look forward to doing this!
Take care, XOXO

October 2019

Hello friends,
I hope you are doing well. I’m actually doing great, September was brutal and such an emotional month. So, I am glad that October is here. The season changed a week ago and I truly believe we were lucky enough to experience the climate change with it. Early mornings and evenings are nice and chilly, and the air feels so fresh out.

I tend to feel more inspired through out Fall / Winter seasons, could be because I love the cold or that the sweat from the summer isn’t irritating me so maybe I can think clearer. Whatever it is, I am glad that October is here.

Here at my house we like to kick off the new month with spooky vibes and spirit. For instance, I decided that I bake cupcakes. Nothing truly fancy, but I did add one of those Brach’s candied pumpkins.

Honestly though, my house has been decked out on Autumn decor since September 1st. No shame, no regrets lol. And ever since then I have been writing little notes on how autumn arrived. Always started little blog updates and never went on with them.

I know my blog is allover the place, and I unfortunately keep making excuses for myself to not just write. Will I ever change? Who knows… I do love this though, having my space to write my thoughts and hopefully somehow impact someone out there. I know it feels like I’m putting myself out there into the nothingness, but there are people out there!!!

If you’re out there…. HELLO! Do you celebrate holidays? Can you please share with me what they are? And, if you ever have any questions… PLEASE ask me!!!

Anyway, I’ll have more soon…


XOXO,
Z

Tacos De Tinga

Hello friends,
It’s been a minute haha. I hope you are doing well. July simply flew by, as if it didn’t exist. I really have been living through my words and living in the moment. I’ve been trying to do more reading and just use my time efficiently. Other than that, all I do is work.

However, when I am not working I am eating… literally tacos. Breakfast tacos, lunch & dinner tacos. #tacosforever? This week, I had a little extra time on my hands and I was trying to decide what to cook for lunch/dinner I kept going back to Tinga. If you aren’t familiar with Tinga, it’s an authentic Mexican dish made out of tomato and Chipotle sauce and usually always mixed with shredded chicken. You can put the Tinga on some corn tortillas for tacos, burritos, tostadas, or even pair it with eggs for breakfast if you want to go that way.

I simply made tacos added some queso fresco, cilantro, and a dab of sour cream for color and pizzazz lol. Anyway, I’ll keep it simple for you and share the recipe I used.

Tacos De Tinga

  • Servings: 8-10
  • Difficulty: Easy
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A delicious authentic Mexican dish that will have you asking for seconds.


Ingredients


– 1 pound whole boneless chicken breast
– 4 tomatoes
– 1 large sweet onion
– 3 cloves of garlic
– 2 tsp chicken bouillon
– 1 can of Chipotle in adobo sauce
– 2 tbsp Oregano
– 1/2 tsp black pepper
– 1 cup of chicken broth
– Salt to taste
– 4 tbsp of Cooking oil

Directions


1. In a large pot place the chicken breast and drown them with water. Add 2 garlic cloves, 2 tsp of chicken bouillon and bring to a boil.
2. Once chicken is cooked, reserve 1 cup of the broth. I like to reserve a little extra just in case I need more. Place the breasts to cool off aside. Thinly slice the sweet onion and set aside.
3. Gut the inside of the tomatoes and chop it into about an inch big. Place the tomatoes into a blender then add the oregano, canned chipotle sauce, black pepper, dash of salt, & chicken broth. Blend. At this time, shred the chicken and set aside.
4. In the empty large pot, add the oil and onion. Cook until the onion is a bit translucent then add garlic clove. Saute then add the sauce. Finally, add the shredded chicken and bring to a simmer.


At this time you can now put your Tinga on some soft corn tortillas, tostada, or burrito! Add some queso fresco, crema, and cilantro. Dinner is served!

Overcoming Fears

Hello!
I hope you’re doing well. I can’t believe that June is almost over, summer in SOCAL has been gloomy and honestly, nice. I guess I’m one of those people who thrives in cold weather or cool weather (INSERT SUNGLASSES EMOJI). Haha, just kidding, we are all cool.

So, anxiety has been manageable and luckily enough I really have been feeling great these days. I know I sound repetitive, but it’s a method I use to remind myself that all things in life are doable, manageable. About a year or two ago I remember being so stuck in this dark cloud and found no joy in anything. I was scared to even go out for a while and my anxiety would not let me live. This past month I gave myself doable intentions.

I kept reminding myself to LIVE and enjoy + embrace the things that came along. Sure, there are hundreds of reasons to panic, but I didn’t allow myself to fall victim to my own enemies. So here’s what I did.

I Learned to Swim

I’m one of those adult kids who never learned to swim. Scratch that, I’m one of those adult kids who is was afraid to swim in the water. Something so natural that should instantly kick into gear when you jump in a pool right? I can’t remember exactly when this fear began, but I was at least 13 years old and I really wanted to swim. I was just so afraid. I do remember that a lot of it had to do with my own insecurities and my anxiety telling me I couldn’t do it.

Here’s the thing though, it’s not true. If I truly believed in myself I knew I could over come this fear. And, I did.

As I visited my aunt who has a nice pool in her backyard this past weekend, I glanced over at her pool as I always did when I came to visit. It was as if the pool, the water called for me. Yet, every single time I found an excuse to not get in. Not this time. While part of me still said, “no you can’t swim.” The other half, logical, said, “get in, don’t think about it and just do it.”

I stepped in, feet first, “it’s so cold” I told myself. And then I went all in. I was still in the shallow part of the pool so I can stand up completely. I got used to the temperature and then I started thinking about all the videos and things I’ve read on how to swim. Head up, push myself off the ground, move my legs and arms. Before you know it, I was doing it. I was swimming. I was a little scared naturally, but I kept doing it until I was tired.

Honestly, I know I still need more practice, but I couldn’t be more proud of myself. Sure, it was just learning to swim, but there is such a larger and deeper meaning to all of this. I am at a place where I feel confident in myself. I know I can do things and I’m not afraid to do them. When I felt like I was sinking a little bit, I pushed myself up as I always do when something in life brings me down. This was simply a physical representation of how much of a better place I am at with myself.

I’m not afraid to be me, I’m not afraid of my insecurities. I am capable of anything, just as you and everyone else is. Life will always come with its overbearing, tiresome, and difficult times. Though we must all sought out the good in things. We must let ourselves live. And we may surprise ourselves with things we didn’t already know…..

XOXO,
Zayra

June 2019

HELLO JUNE!!!
How are you friends? Are you still there? It’s been a hot minute since I last wrote about something or have made something to share with the web. I’ve been a been under the weather. I was going through some crazy health issues and was really in a place that I hate to be in.

I relapsed. I let myself fall into that dark place. I let all the bad consume me whole. All of light turned grey and all of joy was lost. I started to feel the comfort behind it. I suddenly became a passenger to my anxiety, letting it take control of what I would do and how I would feel. Like an addict I didn’t feel life. I didn’t allow myself to live as I try to do.

But, I’m here, I’m back. I’m feeling better and I want to get to work on the things I love the most. I want to write. I want to inspire. And I want to cook all the food I can.

Hello Summer

I’m so glad that summer is arriving, while I don’t love the heat I do enjoy spending the day out, going on mini trips, having BBQ’s, and spend the time with my friends and family. While my budget is limited, I do want to have fun with my daughter. And most of all, I want to enjoy LIFE.

My June intentions are:

  • Exercise & EAT
  • Enjoy the outdoors [WALK, RUN, JUMP, BREATHE, GO TO THE BEACH]
  • Most of all LIVE, don’t allow anxiety to take over.
  • Take Lots of pictures!!!

And if you’ve read this far, you enjoy all of this too. I will write to you soon!!

XOXO
Zayra (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

Stressed Out

Hello friend,

Happy May 1st!
I cannot believe that we already are in May. The days keep passing by so quickly.
I hope it’s going well.

I’m writing a short post today.

It definitely has been a hasty year thus far. I have to remind myself to take a deep breath more than usual these days. Never did I realize that life would be making me feel so stressed out. While in school I always figured that stuff would get better. Always looking at the bright side right? It’s good to be optimistic about life and how you’re going to be.

And it’s also okay to not be.

Stress has been consuming me. Sometimes I feel like I’m stressing myself out for not being where I want to be in life. Not achieving my goals and not being able to get the things I need. I’m feeling restrained from being successful and doing more.

Not only do I feel stressed, it’s also taking a toll on my health. I’m feeling more tired than usual, feeling anxious, and not being able to sleep most nights.

I’ll lay in bed dose off for a bit and immediately wake up. And just when I feel like I could get a good night rest I feel more exhausted.

Self Care:

  • When I’m feeling like I can’t breathe I try to remind myself to relax.
  • Ask myself if whatever it is worth making you feel sick.
  • Go for a walk.
  • Breathe.
  • Sit.
  • Do nothing. Whatever I can to make myself feel better.

Life has been a little chaotic and I’m trying to be more proactive to my writing. I’m just always making excuses to not continue my work.

I must I remind myself. Life is too short. Don’t stay mad at silly things. Focus on yourself.

Until then, take care.

-Z