Happy New Year my friend! Yes, we are roughly three weeks into the new year and I’m just making an update to this blog. I don’t forget about you. I think about you all the time! I just can’t seem to keep up with updates or even trying to make time as I wish. Last year, I went from working at a part-time position in retail to a full-time job at a Hotel. It’s been interesting and very busy. I have a lot of responsibilities in my job and I also have to make time for my daughter.
Before the new year began I took time to really evaluate my life and my goals. I overheard people already talking about how when the new year would come they would make all types of resolutions. Then, came the new year and these resolutions people made were not being fulfilled.
I told myself, “don’t make any resolutions because you don’t need that kind of pressure.” Of course, everyone was talking about it. Instagram bloggers stories were filled with all types of resolutions. Like eating healthier, losing weight, spending less time on their phone… etc…
I began to feel pressured.
YOU MUST MAKE NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!!!
NO! I WON’T!!! So why do resolutions suck?
Because the pressures of society and our expectations and such you know? If I announced to the world that I was going to lose weight and I don’t keep up with it becomes a cliche per say>> “NEW YEAR, NEW ME.”
Silly isn’t it? How this one thing that’s supposed to motivates us ends up making us feel bummed out!! I know that kind of pressure doesn’t work with me. It’s actually an antic for myself to self sabotage and feel guilty of my terrible eating habits… and exercise routines… lol.
But, you know what? I don’t care! I made NO resolutions and just decided to keep that peace of mind and make better life decisions. Creating a healthier relationship with yourself and everything around you (IMO) is a better way for long term success.
Stay positive, life won’t always suck! XOXO, Z ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
The end of the year is coming up and all I can think about is how I’m getting older and that time is moving quicker. As I reflect on my past ten years I think about the people who have come into my life and made an impact on me. I also look back on the difficult times that made me the person I am today.
Life hasn’t been easy, though, every struggle along the way has made me appreciate the things I’ve gotten. I never really announce the the world my accomplishments or show off. I guess I was never really proud of myself because I didn’t think it was enough. I always felt like I could do more and that somehow someway the world wouldn’t be impressed.
I talk about it many times in my past posts, I always cared what people said and if people spoke about me. I don’t know if that is some cultural thing because of the way I was raised. Like my mother saying “don’t behave that way because of such and such.” Maybe that was it, though, I cared too much. I was embarrassed of expressing myself and being out there because I didn’t want to tarnish some reputation my family had, if they had one.
I’ve always been reserved, quiet, and to myself. Not really putting myself out there. Keeping myself closed from things. I had this idea that if something was meant to come into your life it would come. Though, as I grew older I soon realized that if I am not open to anything, nothing in my life would happen. Life would simply be meaningless and boring.
Independent to me means: working, making big life decisions on your own, going places you never been.
Ever since I was younger I began helping my parents make difficult decisions, or simply make my own. When I was in my second year of college I found out I was pregnant and so I remember it being a difficult time for me. Quitting the university was never an option for me, I knew I was going to finish despite whatever people said about me.
I felt like I brought shame into my family because I would be a single mother. My parents had me on this pedestal and so they always made me feel like I always had to make right decisions. They still do. It sucks. But I figured it out on my own. They eventually came around and accepted me and my unborn child.
My pregnancy wasn’t easy, emotionally, it was difficult. And labor was brutal. I had an emergency C-Section because my daughter was wrapped around her umbilical cord and wasn’t able to breathe. I also was losing consciousness and don’t remember more about it. But, we both lived.
The most difficult time was after child labor when I went through postpartum depression. I didn’t want to acknowledge that something was wrong and I was so good at hiding my emotions. But, I was seriously miserable. I felt alone, and sometimes didn’t even want to hold my daughter. I felt like I wasn’t good enough or even knew how to love her. Then I began to hate myself.
After seeking help I started to progress to do better. I was able to learn on how to acknowledge my emotions and I did improve.
As I look back on my sad days, difficult days, happy days, and my entire decade I am proud of where I am today. Some days are difficult, but that’s life unfortunately. I just have to keep working harder on doing what I want.
A New Decade
As a new year approaches us, I look forward to see where I will be going. This time, I will not set up expectations and goals. Instead, I’ll take things day by day, learn to moderate things, and try to go places I never been. The upcoming years are full of exciting new opportunities to learn new things, make new memories, and just grow as a person.
If you’ve read up to here, I appreciate you and wish you a wonderful holiday season. May the new year be exciting and wonderful to you. I’ve been a bit busy with work, but I hope to catch you before the new year.
Hey friend, About a few weeks ago I started a little experiment of my life in a week where I wanted to capture my daily life through a series of photos. Whether it was random things I saw or things that inspired me. And honestly, it didn’t work for me. I always forgot to take photos and I felt more inspired through my words rather than through an image. As we know, it’s quite difficult to capture stories through a lens. Or simply, I don’t have an eye for it.
However, I felt like I am more of a story teller through my writings. Ironically, I am awful at updating my blog with stories… Anyway, the point is that life is always changing and so are people.
When you try something out and it doesn’t work for you it’s okay to change your mind about it. Life isn’t perfect. Life is always unstable and unexpected. It will take you through places you don’t want to be. Bearable or unbearable, life will put you through the best and worst situations and it is up to us to make the best out of it.
i am a writer
I will never not love to write. I shall proclaim, I am a writer!
I write for myself and for those who stumble upon my work and can relate to my stories. My work isn’t professional, it’s personal as all things should be. Getting to know people and such… I enjoy a nice long chat with people, connecting and learning their stories. Seeing people for who they are and what they yearn for.
Life is bananas, I have so many interests and am always trying to take up new hobbies. But that’s life. If we didn’t do anything what is the point of it? There is so much to try and so much to learn. Why sit around doing nothing all day?
(okay, you can totally binge watch your favorite shows!)
Anyway, this blog. is a mess, an actual representation of my brain. One day I’m all about cooking, the next it’s about the beauty of painting, coloring, reading, knitting, etc… I will never not just write about one thing because there is SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT!
LIFE. IS. SHORT. LET’S. GO.
see you next time, thank you for reading. love you…
Hello there! Happy November my friend, have you been reading my words? Have you been enjoying my photos? Life is always moving so quickly and I try to capture as much as I can through photos. Though, I love living in the moment.
Aren’t we all just strangers trying to put ourselves out there?
Make time to read.
Make time to create.
Make time to unwind.
November is special to me because I make the time to reflect on the many great things going on in my life. The opportunities and blessings I have. I try to remind myself daily to be thankful for everything.
When life feels unfair, I just tell myself to look back and see my accomplishments. If something didn’t work out there was a reason. A reason that I don’t understand now. Whether it was timing in life, a door closing or another one opening. Life is really special and strange to understand.
As we wind down to the last weeks and month of this year remind yourself to make time for you. Be thankful for the people around you. For your existence. While holidays are meant to bring people together, these days makes us feel stressed out and burnt out.
Let us forget about the things we want, but think of the wonderful life we already have…
Thank you, if you read this far, thank you for reading my ramblings. I love writing and sharing my words. And I hope you can relate to whatever I say or not. haha…
Hey there! As I write to reflect the past I realize how long and busy it was. I can’t remember the last time I sat to enjoy doing nothing. Working two jobs back to back is no joke. Seriously, I’m super tired.
However, through all the madness I managed to SURVIVE! It wasn’t easy, and honestly all I wished was to do was sleep in. My body has adjusted to naturally get up and go at the crack of dawn and I’m like whyyyyy??? Anyway, Halloween week is finally coming and the next month!! Now, let me share some of my favorite snaps of this past week.
Life moves fast so lets capture as much as we can.
As the new week approaches, I want to remind myself to be thankful for all the blessings and great opportunities life has for me. For a long time I spent my days wondering when life would bring new and great opportunities. I realized that it all works out after you work hard.
Work hard today and play harder tomorrow. LOL as cliche as that sounds it’s so true. Opportunity doesn’t just fall down on you, we must build the paths to get on the main road… whatever that means right?
This new week will be another busy one for me, however, I am ready! I have planned as much as I can and am anticipating it!
Hello! This week is extraordinary out of my comfort zone. I usually don’t tend to go out much because I get anxious or simply don’t want to go out. However, I started a new job and that pushed me to get out of my zone a bit. I am a bus commuter so it was interesting to take a couple buses just to get to work on time. Anyhow, this week(end) was very anticipated for daughter and myself. I hosted her first Halloween party.
Through all the running around from store to store; here are some photos I was able to capture…. haha oops.
Week 3 starts tomorrow… Please let me know how your weeks are going~~~ Take care, XOXO Z
Hey there! I hope you are doing well! You could call me the queen of procrastination because I never write, or put it aside… haha well. I just keep getting caught up in my life. My anxiety and always making excuses for myself. Like I just want to live and enjoy.
The other day I posted a photo of myself for World Mental Health Day, because I know there are a lot of people out there who suffer. Quietly, too. I am for sure one of those people. In this photo I captured myself feeling happy. And I try to look at it when I am feeling all anxious and unhappy.
So I wanted to try something new. I am the type of person to try many things in hopes of finding peace with my anxiety and hoping to find happiness along the way. I want to capture my everyday life with a photo. Whether it is of myself or something that makes me smile. I want to be more proactive for myself, to remind myself to be happy and enjoy life.